Updated: Dec 12, 2019
Let’s talk about Fear…
As a business owner, fear can definitely play a part in my decision making. I try not to let it, but it happens.
When we launched Seagram’s Systems in 2014, it was completely rooted in faith. We knew that it was what we were supposed to be doing at the time, because everything fell into place far beyond what we could have achieved on our own. The last almost six years have been a whirlwind of blessing and learning and growth for Ian and myself, but we always knew that the AV side of things was not the final step in our business journey.
The thing that has made Seagram AV so unique in our industry is the skill set of Ian and I combined. With his tech knowledge, and my background in event planning, we’ve created this company based around being a true partner to our clients. I understand how they think as planners, because I am one. But I’ve parlayed that into being a technical consultant and even learned to be an actual AV tech, and I know how to “speak the language”. While I absolutely love what we do, and I love partnering with our clients, and working alongside the love of my life, my passion has always been the actual planning of events. I’ve managed to pick up a passion project or two every year and have poured countless hours into them, but I was always too scared to actually follow that passion into an actual business.
As an Enneagram Type 2, I’m “The Helper”. This means I typically put others’ needs before my own. I have always lived by the motto “God first, family second, business third”, but I never really put myself in there in terms of truly pursuing passions. We started our life together in 2012, our business in 2014, and from there, my focus has been on making Seagram AV an exceptional and sustainable company. But my soul comes alive when I’m able to really focus on planning an event. I am a total admin-nerd and I LOVE spreadsheets, Google docs, and lists of any kind. But for some reason, even after launching a successful business, somehow I was still scared that moving into a new chapter where I’m actually running an event planning business was selfish or unreasonable.
Y’all, I know that’s insane.
My husband knows that’s insane.
My friends know that’s insane.
I was the only one who thought this way!
Ian and I have always discussed adding Seagram Events to our business plan, and it’s always been in the back of my mind, but I always kind of doubted it would ever happen. As soon as an opportunity arose for it to actually become real, Ian was immediately thinking ten steps down the road to a land where this side of the business had taken off and we needed more infrastructure in place for both sides of the business to succeed independently, and I was EXTREMELY hesitant. I kept telling him to slow down, nothing has happened yet, we don’t need to think that far in advance (way to be a planner, Meg!). I’m usually pretty confident and I tend to take an idea and run with it, but this was a desire of my heart that I’d only dreamed of until now, and I was terrified to actually speak my desires into the world, for fear of failure.
I finally mentioned briefly to a couple of dear friends that I was “kind of starting this new endeavor”, all nonchalant and timid, and immediately, my dear friend Shannon was shouting it from the rooftops at a Rebelle Con team meeting an hour later. I was quick to jump in with “this isn’t really a thing! It’s no big deal!” and these amazing women were even quicker to tell me to hush and that this was huge. Within a day or two, I knew they were right, and I actually started to move forward with more purpose and intensity, knowing that this had grown, despite my unbelief, and was really blooming into something.
As soon as it became public knowledge that this was happening, the response has mostly been “it’s about time!” or “this is so perfect for you!”. I had feared this for so long, and yet, I now feel like I should never have waited as long as I did! I am so thankful to Team Rebelle for being my greatest cheerleaders, long-distance encouragement from my best friends from college, and my amazing hubby for always encouraging me to be the best version of myself I can be. I am SO blessed and thankful for this chapter, and that my friends will NOT let fear guide my life. I am so grateful fo all of you who continue to inspire and encourage me daily!
Currently stuck in my head:
Currently Reading (Usually On Audible):
"The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo" byTaylor Jenkins Reid
Verse of the Moment... "I believe, Lord! Help my overcome my unbelief." - Mark 9:24